Weight is a big topic for me. I've gone back and forth in my life between eating disorders, I either eat everything or I don't eat. There is nothing in my brain that has been able to find that happy medium, ever. I have painstakingly plan meals and then set timers and check in with myself if I have any hope of maintaining a healthy diet and I can only do that for so long before I say fuck it. That's the first struggle.

The second struggle is exercise. In the last few years, I've had hip, shoulder, and knee injuries. That took my exercise from decent to nonexistent in a hurry. I gained a massive amount of weight in the last two years. If it wasn't affecting my asthma and my knee I wouldn't even care, but it's a health issue at this point.

I was looking for low-impact workouts for larger bodies and was extremely discouraged by what I found. It's all led by super skinny people who can move their bodies in ways mine couldn't move when it was thin and definitely can't move now. The exercises I used to do aren't possible due to the injuries I've sustained, so I'm learning to work out all over again.

Does anyone have any tips on healthy eating or struggling with eating disorders?
Does anyone have any good websites or youtube channels for larger bodies for workouts?